I was talking to a friend on the phone last night and she is running her husband's business for a week while he is away fishing. This is his reward for letting her go to Scotland alone earlier in the year to visit her grandchildren. They couldn't afford for both of them to go so just she went. There are a lot of trade-offs like that in marriage. We were talking about landing in Heathrow and I immediately thought how much I would like to travel but can't "because Ray has had strokes". See? Everything comes back to that , doesn't it? Ray has had strokes so poor me can't do any of the things I want to do!
It is so simple to blame it all on "the stroke". My house is untidy because I look after a person who has had a stroke. My furniture is old because... My health is declining because....My clothes are old and daggy because... Hang on here, where is MY responsibility in all of this? Everyone has 24 hour days and everyone, to a certain extent, governs how they use it. A person caring for a stroke survivor just has to be more careful with their time to allow for some of the other events to take place.
As a full-time caregiver I need to put time management skills into practice. I need to have a look at my life and see where I can take advantage of the time I have to do some of the things I want to do. For instance I complain that I never go to the movies. But since the place that hired the movies in my local shopping centre moved and I have to drive another ten minutes to get movies I don't rent movies either. This is not about the stroke, this is about ME. I could plan that into my shopping trip, pick up movies, do the shopping. Not that hard to do.
And I need to practice trade-offs. I could get the son who drops his daughter off to have a visit with Granma to pick up my fruit and vegs while he is on the way back to pick her up as he drives past the shop I usually use. It is a matter of putting some of the ideas I used to use when I worked outside the home into fixing up some of the wasted experiences here. And like Sarah (space1) maybe I can barter some of the things I have for some of the things I need. I just have to have time to think about it.
I can think this way when I have time to myself but can't think at all when most of my activities are governed by knee-jerk reactions to the current crisis. Mostly I just don't have time to sit down and sort things out. By the end of this week I need to have not a "to do" list but a list of how to do things better.
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