momx3

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    On 10/5 I got to go to Texas Stadium and watch the Cowboys beat (although it was very close) the Bengals. I have always wanted to go to a Cowboys game and to be able to go to the stadium in its final year!! Very exciting! :Clap-Hands: My husband bought the tickets for me in September as a late birthday gift. I think it was the greatest thing I've ever recieved! :laughbounce: He knows how much of a fanatic I am about the Cowboys. I had to fight back the tears when I finally saw them run out on the field. :happydance:
     
    For me, this is one of those things that I can mark off my list. Thanks Hubby! :thankyou:
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    Today starts the first of many "widow weekends". Today it's to go feed the feeders, drink beer, set up camp, drink beer & BBQ, pull weeds, drink more beer. Hubby has been packed all week, as has my dad, ready to run out the door at 5:30 today to go do the "man thing". They're so funny about all this. My dad was scheduled to be here at 5:30 to pick up Joe and my son to drive 200+ miles to put out apples for the deer. I get home and Joe is practically standing on the street corner looking for my dad to come driving up. Dad gets here and they have to completely empty out the bed of the truck, load the 4-wheeler (which by the way, DH has been petting every day for the last 2 weeks), then load everything back in the truck. Doesn't this sound like a whole lotta work for apples?!? Then I get kisses and hugs from all around and they're off. I really do enjoy this time because it means I get the remote, I get the whole bed, it's just me and my daughter and the little one (who is already itching to become one of the guys!)
     
    Now is the time of year that Thanksgiving and Christmas, if it weren't for the fact that these days have their day of the year (along with glaring looks from us wives) would be overlooked and cast aside. Our calendar is filled with the words "GOING TO LEASE" on almost every weekend between now and the new year. Pray for mercy on the wife who says yes to a b-day party that falls on one of these weekends. Have mercy on the child who has a concert or a game on one of these weekends. It's hunting season for goodness sakes!
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    :Clap-Hands: My first born is 17 today! :cheer: Its so hard to believe, time has gone by so fast, its all a blur! I asked him how it felt to be 17, his answer: the same. :big_grin:
     
    We went through a rough period probably due to puberty but all in all he is such a great kid despite some bad influences in his life, namely his sperm donor :ranting: . I've never had a single time where I thought he was doing something illegal or harmful. I trust him completely and we now have a wonderful relationship. When my husband is gone he's my 2nd man. He helps me with anything I need and with nothing more than a joking groan, he is always at my parents house helping them with whatever they need done around the house. He helps my elderly neighbor with whatever she needs. I'm so proud of him.
     
    When I told the kids that I was pregnant with my youngest, my son actually cried and was so upset that I was pregnant. I can only imagine why he was so upset. He was 13 at the time. Now he is crazy about his little brother and visa versa. He will come flying through the house to get his skateboard or something from his room and on his way out the door, he'll stop and tell the little one to give him a hug. If he sees me driving down the road, he'll stop me get in the back seat and give the little one a hug.
     
    He's so wonderful, if I do say so myself. To me he is proof that kids can turn out ok with one parent. Even though he has my husband now as a role model, for 80% of his life he only had me.
     
     
    Now if I can get my daughter through these awkward years without locking her in a closet :wicked: then I'm good for another 10 years or so until the little one reaches that age. :dribble:
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    Monday GOOD Monday

    By momx3,

    Hubby got a new job yesterday :Clap-Hands: :Clap-Hands: He just has to pass the drug test and background check but neither of those are an issue. He starts on 6/26 installing security alarm/survelleince systems at businesses. He seems excited, its a little bit different that what he's been doing for so long which was in-house wiring for phones and computers. He actually ate dinner last night (then complained about how bloated he was). I don't think he had really eaten all week because he was so worried about finding a job.
     
    I am proud of myself I never got upset about it. Never freaked out, really. I was concerned but I didn't let it consume me.
     
    I am so relieved :cheer: :cheer: :cocktail: :beer:
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    Monday BAD Monday

    By momx3,

    Got to work a few minutes late this morning, because I had to drop my daughter off at my mom's house and mom LOVES to talk! :yadayada: :yadayada: Anyway, when I got here there was a message on my phone from my husband and it just said "gimme a call". So I did. Some small talk at first then......."I got fired". :Tantrum: Now, knowing my husband, I immediately thought he was pulling my leg. But there was something in the sound of his voice that told me different.
     
    Why? That's a mystery to us. They said it was because of a customer complaint. But the customer they mentioned was one that seemed very pleased with the work hubby had done for him. I don't know :uhm: , I'm trying not to obsess over it. Let's get a new job and move on. But the OMG how am I going to pay for this or do that's are eeking up on me.
     
    I've been online all day helping him apply for unemployement and apply for jobs. He's really computer illiterate! The job sites for Texas suck! You find a job that matches you and there's no way to apply for it. Ahhhhh!! :throw:
     
     
    Man, that's just what we need! I sure hope the old saying where one door closes another opens is really true.
     
    Pray for open doors!
     
     
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    That was rough

    By momx3,

    I went to the hospital to see my friend. I prayed for strength all night and again on the way to the hospital. I printed off the "Survivor's Bill of Rights" and "A Letter from your Brain" and took them with me. Her mom was there and I told them both that it may be a benefit to read them, when they could.
     
    I decided that maybe I could be an inspiration to her if she saw how far I had come on the road to recovery. I told her most importantly she is a survivor and she is alive and that as rough as it is right now, it will get better she just needs time. Rest when she needs to, cry when she needs to. It's ok, it's our right as survivors.
     
    From what I could tell she started having the effects of the stroke last Tuesday while she was at the courthouse (for her divorce I guess), but she didn't go to the hospital until Saturday. Her mom said they are going to thin her blood but that she didn't have a blod clot. Her speech is really bad so I expected her to be in a lot worse condiditon. She is able to move all of her limbs, but can't stand or walk on her own yet because of the weakness. Her face is numb, she has double vision in her right eye and can't swallow very well. They were getting ready to hook up an IV when I left and the doctor discussed some PT with her and her mom.
     
    I told her I'd come back by in a couple of days.
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    I was at the doctor with my youngest when I got a call on my cell. We had just been shown to an exam room, and I didn't really pay attention to who was calling and after I answered the phone the voice sounded like my friend when she is messing with me disguising her voice. But after I said WHAT DO YOU WANT, she didn't stop like she usually does. So I looked at the caller ID and realized that it was the wife of a co-worker. I really couldn't understand her, her voice sounded very distorted and I thought oh my gosh, is she drunk? She was crying and drawing her words out a lot. I said what's the matter, thinking it was more drama with her husband who has been having an affair and not being very nice to her since she caught him. Then she said she was in the hospital and my light flickered on. She said what I already knew by now, she had had a stroke. I don't know yet what caused it but I can only guess it was from her blood pressure. She has been under a terrific amount of stress for the last month or so and her husband, my co-worker, is just a jerk and is mad at her because he got caught.
     
    I really feel bad that I was so abrupt when I answered the phone, I really did think it was a friend of mine. I told her I would try to come see her. I just hope I can handle it. I told my husband that because I am so emotional I didn't know how I was going to react when I see her. If she is as bad as she sounds I'm not sure I can handle it.
     
    I told her the only thing I knew to tell her, I said it seems really bad in the beginning but it will get better. I asked if I had ever told her that I had a stroke and she said no. So I told her that a year ago I had stroked and that it took a while but eventually I started feeling better.
     
    I don't remember sounding quite as bad as she does but I do remember sounding drunk. Maybe it was worse to those listening to me. I had a very hard time understanding her and I will probably muster the courage to go see her tomorrow since the hospital is right near my office. I just don't want to give her any false hope. I know that I've been extremely lucky with my recovery and the fact that I don't have too many lingering effects. I also know that others have not had the same fortune that I've had.
     
    Wow, I wish she wasn't going through this.
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    Life is too short

    By momx3,

    I just got word that a co-worker passed away last night. She was only 22 and has two young children. Her husband found her when he went to kiss her goodbye this morning. We don't know the cause yet but they are doing an autopsy and I guess we'll find out more later.
     
    I know its all part of His plan but it sure upsets me to think about those two little ones having to grow up without their mommy. I guess we aren't supposed to understand it all, because I know I don't.
     
    It also reminds me of how close I came and how many things would have been left undone, unsaid.
     
    Life is too short to not let the ones you love, know that you love them. To let disagreements and misunderstandings continue, without resolution with anyone you care about.
     
    Why put off until tomorrow what you could do today. You never know what tomorrow might bring.
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    not with it today

    By momx3,

    Right after we left the house this morning I was singing along with the Wiggles and messing with my teenage daughter in the car and my 3 yr old was in the back seat laughing along when all of a sudden I heard this really loud honk. I focused in and realized that there was a school bus stopped on the left side of the street with it's flashers on. He was honking at me because I didn't stop. That is the first time in my whole driving life that I didn't stop for a school bus. I was so flustered after that happened. What if a kid was crossing the street and didn't look both ways first and I hit him. :yikes: Then when I got to my daughters school, its normal for me to roll the back window down so the little one can yell and wave bye to her I rolled the window down but just drove off after she got out and the baby was so upset and screamed all the way to the sitters house. He kep looking out the back window calling for his sister and was telling me to go backwards so he could say bye. I've just noticed lately that it is really hard for me to concentrate on things. My husband is half deaf from years of hunting and when he watches TV it's loud enough for the neighbors to hear. If I need to talk to him, I have to ask him to turn it off because I feel like I can't gather my thoughts with all the noise. I literally can't hear myself think anymore when its noisy. That's really frustrating.
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    4 years ago today

    By momx3,

    I married the most wonderful man on the planet for 4 years ago today. We have been through things that have tested our strength, our faith and our patience and I think we've come through with flying colors! One month after we were married Joe was hurt on the job (crushed a bone in the middle of his ankle) and was out of work for about a year. Financially this seemed like it was going to be impossible. We survived and came out stronger in the end. A year later and after several weeks on bed rest, I gave birth to a perfect little boy who is now the joy of our family (siblings included). Joe's mother passed away peacefully in a nursing home. Then in July of last year, just as things seemed to be settling into some normalcy I stroked. Joe has been my strength. He has never faulted me for things I thought I couldn't do. He always encourages me to try again and he doesn't let anyone try to take advantage of me. Without him and my babies I know things wouldn't be the same.
     
    After having such a bad experience the first time around, I didn't think I could ever love a man the way that I love Joe. He is my rock, my everything, my best friend. He has never taken me for granted and since the stroke he is even more protective of me.
     
    I want the whole world to know how much I love my husband and how much I apreciate him. I'm the luckiest girl alive :happydance:
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    Interresting Trip

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    I had to go to Miami on Tuesday for a business trip. Along the way I stopped in New Orleans to pick up a co-worker. She and I had never met but since I had to go over N.O. to get to Florida I figured I'd stop there and meet up with her and we'd continue on together. She's a very nice person, about the same age as me, she has an older daughter and a new baby (9 mos old), we had some things in common and enjoyed a nice chat during our flight. :chat: About half way through the trip she said long flights make her nervous , I asked why and she said because she has a blood clotting disorder, which she was on meds for, and she had had a DVT and a pulminary emobolism. I thought wow! :yikes: this is really strange. I asked what kind of meds, coumadin, I asked what the name of her disorder was, Lupas Anticoagulant. Now I didn't know until 3 or 4 weeks ago what the name of my blood disorder was and had never heard of it and couldn't find much information on it so to now be sitting next to a co-worker who had the same thing I had was very interresting to say the least. She was diagnosed in '98 and has been on coumadin since then, she doesn't see a hematologist like I do but we were able to exchange some information and it was really neat.