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Dear Gramma: Add me to the list. I am my own judge and jury. I have said the following so much, probably every day since I was out of my coma, etc. and could understand what I was thinking. The Serenity Prayer God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change; courage to change the things I can; and wisdom to know the difference. Living one day at a time; sometimes I have to take one second at a time Enjoying one moment at a time; appreciate the days I have as I missed out on months from the coma Accepting hardships as the pathway to peace; and accept it as my journey Trusting that He will make all things right if I surrender to His Will; He has my life all planned out, I just need to take the journey That I may be reasonably happy in this life President Lincoln said people are as happy as they make their minds to be. I choose to be happy. I say in the morning or when I wake up: I welcome the day and I tell myself I am going to enjoy what the day brings. I truly feel my hubby is burnt out. I know it's been hard for him, but I can't do anymore than what I am. He gets frustrated with me when he will say something to me and then I can't remember what he said, I have short term memory really bad. I find it gets worse when I am tired and/or stressed. I can only imagine how hard being with me is. I also know being my caregiver gets to be much on him. I have come a long way but five years is a bit much. I think he realizes that as well. I just keep striving to be happy and learn as much as I can .... being here has helped me so much. I am so thankful for those who share. This is such a safe haven where we can be totally honest with one another. There are many who walk in our shoes. I know another thing that is tough for me is I will type a post and when I go over it to check for typos, etc. there are words that are backwards, etc. like you said in your post, I know what the number or letter is I just cant get it to from my brain to my fingers. In my mind, I know what I want to say and I type it and dang it's wrong. None of us are stupid or we wouldn't be here. We are Survivors. We went into battle and have had war with the beast.... STROKE. We have beat the odds. We have fought hard to reclaim our lives. Each of us deserve a medal of bravery and the ability to do whatever we had to ... to get back what we could of our lives. We need to learn to love and accept ourselves. Great post Diane, thanks. God Bless, I'm rooting for you. Keep me updated ok. ty Hugs, Jan Believe In Miracles and SOAR
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TODAY IS MY FIVE YEAR ANNIVERSARY SINCE MY BRAIN STEM STROKE... TY GOD FOR GIVING ME A SECOND CHANCE AT LIFE.
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God Bless you our special friend
Believe in Miracles and SOAR
Happy Monday to u, Hugs, Jan
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Happy Birthday to u
Happy Birthday to u
Happy Birthday Deaaaaar Chris
Happy Birthay to u
Hope your day is as fun as u r
God Bless,
Us BSSS need to take care of each other.
So save your stroke card and let others take care of you today. hehehe
Believe in Miracles and SOAR God Bless u, Hugs, Jan
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Just letting you know there was a shooting star last night right above where we were sitting giving out candy. Thought of your beloved Fate. It's his way of letting all wo loved him know he is doing fine. God Bless,
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Please keep Fate's family and friends in your prayers and thoughts. He went home to be with GOD on Wedneday, October 22nd.
GOD BLESS YOU FATE, WE LOVE YOU.
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My heart is there with you and know God has his Number One Prayer Warrior and Servant beside him now. He will be with us everyday as we go through our journey.
God Bless
Love, Jan
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Dear Donna: I have been holding you and Kristi in my heart and prayers 24/7. Forgiveness frees one from pain and heartache. I truly feel your Mom knew what was going on with herself since she wrote that note on October 17th. She died on the 22nd. She has to answer to God for her doings .... I feel Angel should be with you and Kristi. I don't feel it is right to take her life as Joe wants to do. I totally agree with you as you shared with Joe, to bring your Mom's ashes back with him and let Angel live out her life and when she dies, then take her ashes and your mom's ashes together. Her wishes would be kept they being together. She isn't being buried anyway. I don't know Donna, I just look at my precious Harley and how we almost lost him earlier this year.... we did everything we could to save him and we put him in God's loving arms. No one ever truly knows what is in the heart of the personwho is dying. Sometimes, the person just has to get the final jab in at their family. I just pray Joe can live with his behavior through all of this. Why not let Angel have a loving life until her time comes? I have asked God to please resolve this .... Have faith Donna. I am here for you, but you know that. God Bless you, Kristi, and poor lil Angel.
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Know I am keeping you all in my prayers daily. God is there always.
The miracle is this--the more we share, the more we have.
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We give thanks to be conscious of the awesome narrative of which we are a part,
paradoxical and baffling as it is and must be.
Amen.
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God, Creator of Mystery,
in the growing revelation of reality evolving around us,
we rise with gratitude into an ever larger and larger world.
Our personal life has its meaning,
and is dovetailed in all its co-evolutionary ups and downs
into the larger meaning that encompasses us.
None of us can go it alone: each has innate energies needed by all.
We give thanks
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Dear Donna: WOW, look.... I finally found out how to read your BLOG and I am so happy I was able to get Here. POWER OF GOD that is for sure. Donna, I was so sorry for the trials you had to endure this week. GOD was carrying you, Kristi and your Brother, Joe. I found it a beautiful blessing that there is such an outpouring of love from your Strokenet Family. We are never alone are we? GOD is always there and he had you get involved with this group of individuals. I find that so comforting. You know girl how much I love you and my "niece", Kristi. I will continue to be there for you both until I take my last breath. Or, fall asleep. hehe You will smile again and your heart will not hurt as much. There is no time limit on grieving, so please sweetie take all the time you need ok? we are here for you and you know others will pick up the pieces and help in any way they can. You and Kimmie are so special to me and I am glad we could be there for you. Those late night slumber parties were something I will cherish forever. You know Donna, you helped me as well. My Mom, as you know, was only sick two and a half months, Her passing truly stinged and hurt me for the past 34 years, but through the Grace of GOD I could let it go this past March 19th, but going through this with you, it all came together. You know, I truly believe things happen for a reason, GOD has it all under control. He wants to protect his children, he puts in their lives people for many different reasons. When I joined this "Virtual Strokenet family group" little did I know I would have such special and meaningful relationships. Kimmie losing her Mom as well, he gave you us cuz we could so relate with you. It is a circle that goes around and we pay it forward. The next few days or so will be stressful I know and tears will be shed, but those tears will be healing for you and you know your Mom is looking down on you whispering "I love you Donna and Kristi" I Love You. When you need help, just take a moment and raise your eyes upwards and they will be reacihng down giving you their hands to hold on to. Special people put special footprints on your heart. Isn't it a blessing and gift on yours? Donna, she knew you loved her and I am so thankful Joe was there to convey your love to her, she already knew but it is comforting to hear it just the same. I think you having her celebration of life is a great action to have take place. It will be closure for everyone involved and the healing can start to take place. I am so excited to share with the world how GOD arranged to get Angel home to you and Kristi. You will be honoring your Mom by taking care of her lil baby girl. You can love and nuture her and I know your Mom will be so happy. Just promise me you will take things slow and make sure you are taking care of DONNA. Believe me ... if I could drive, I would have been there from Day 1 .... but at least I could be there "virtually" by phone. As they say, when one door closes another opens. I love you and Kristie,you and Kimmie are the sisters I wish I could have had. The Adopton papers should be in any day so I am told so it can be official. We are sisters .... God Bless and know we are here for you ... It will all get done in GOD's timing.... Have a blessed day. Love n Hugs, Jan
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Please keep Donna, Kristi, Joe in your prayers on the passing of Emma. I love you Donna and I am here for u.
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Dear Cathy: I am still sending my thoughts and prayers your way. Know Fate's love and being will be forever in your heart and the hearts of all who he has touched. That is one thing that stays with us forever. One day you will all be together for eternity. Believe in Miracles and SOAR, God Bless you in this journey. Love n Hugs, Jan
I'm here for you ... plse know that. all of s
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Know I am here for you ... IF you need someone to speak with, please know you can call me. I have worked with cancer patients since 1973 and I've lost ten family members. My heart goes out to you. Please give Fate a big hug from me and thanks for his words that will be with me forever. He is going to his Homecoming and he will be out of pain. He is leaving a BIG legacy ... His words and l
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HI THERE, I LIVE IN MARYLAND NEAR ANNAPOLIS AND WOULD BE HAPPY TO HELP OUT. I AM A BRAIN STEM STROKE SURVIVOR ... IT WILL BE FIVE YEARS NEXT MONTH AND I'VE HAD TWO TIA'S BACK TO BACK LAST YEAR. PLEASE, IF YOU LIKE, SEND ME YOUR PHONE NUMBER THROUGH THE PM OR IM SYSTEM, ** WE BOTH NEED TO BE ON LINE AT THE SAME TIME TO SPEAK THROUGH THE IM SYSTEM AND I WILL CALL YOU AND SEE HOW I CAN HELP. I AM SO Happy to meet you. take care and God Bless, Believe in Miracles and SOAR..... Jan :friends:
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Cathy and Fate. Please know I have you close to my heart and I know GOD is carrying you both in his loving arms. I have read every word Fate has written since I have been active in this awesome group. I have learned so much from that wise hubby of yours. He has put footprints on my heart and everyone he comes in contact with. I always put my suit of armor on each am and I have always said an e
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Louis: My heart felt your post very deeply. I can relate so much. People just don't get it unless they walk the journey with you. They, I firmly have come to believe, they don't want to get or stay too close as they realize this could happen to them. I give Stroke Survivors the GOLD MEDAL if there was one because it takes a lot of hoopspa to get to the next phase of their new life. Just continue doing your best, you aren't on anyone's calendar but your own. You do what you can and just listen to GOD and your inner self. Take it one day at a time, stay positive, keep the HOPE alive and just be kind to yourself and love yourself. Pat yourself on your back and say atta boy when you make small strides.... If that was me with the nail, get, I would have put it in a frame and put it on the wall. I would be ONE with the nail. :roflmao: I, for one, are very proud of you and your accomplishments. Keep them coming, and I would love to see about your future successes and next post. I will keep you in my prayers. You know, family can be your hardest group of people to critique you. I'm doing a happy dance for you. :happydance: God Bless and keep the HOPE alive. Jan Brain Stem Stroke Survivor BELIEVE IN MIRACLES AND SOAR
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:cocktail:Learn to Love Yourself AGAIN, AFTER YOUR STROKE "Quick, think of three things that are good about yourself. Remind yourself of these things all day today, at every given opportunity. Go ahead, give yourself some compliments (even though it may be hard at first). If you need prompting, chose three descriptions from this list that apply to you: sincere, prompt, truthful, caring, attentive, smart, good hair, beautiful blue (or brown or green) eyes, precise, diligent, great sense..." Then remind yourself, you are still the SAME person prestroke, after stroke, circumstances may have changed, however, you are still that same person. Your name hasn't changed, for example, My name prestroke was Jan and now almost five years later it is still Jan. I still have the capacity to love others, I am still a caring person, yes, I have deficits but I try to live my life one day at a time. Do I get sad for the ole "Jan" sure I do, I would not be telling the truth if I said NO. Do I grieve for the old me? Sure I do and there is no time limit for the grieving of the old me. But, as time goes on, the grieving doesn't consume so much of my day nor time. I am my worst judge, I am the judge and jury of Jan. I need to be kinder to myself and learn to start to love her again, be kind to her. It's not being a selfish person to try that ..... I would like to hear other's thoughts on this that I have shared. Thanks. GOD BLESS Hugs n Love, Jan BELIEVE IN MIRACLES AND SOAR
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Hi there, still sending positive energy and prayers your way. God Bless, Hugs, Jan
BELIEVE IN MIRACLES AND SOAR