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I remember the 100 things about me blog. That would be very tough for me. I think I would have a hard time with the 15. it would take awhile. Terry

This guy was recommended by my GP. It was kind of a co-session with my wife there, he would ask me a question I would give him an answer and my wife would have an ah ha moment. I wanted her there. And it seemed to help her more then me. I think he was very observant. That's his job. I just do not think he clicked with me. He set me up with 2 appointments two weeks apart. Is this normal? I am very iffy on whether I will see him again. If I am going to try to manage this I need someone I feel comfortable with.

I went for the first time to meet a psychologist today.... very interesting. My wife went with me. I think it was more therapeutic for her then me. A little recent history of me. I have a really bad sinus infection, very congested, feel like crap. He is asking my wife more questions then me. Asked about the kids and what was going on in their life and then starts asking me a few questions. And out of the blue he blurts out "How long have you had this speech impediment". Really? He had a couple of strokes too and is on coumadin . He started talking about muscle relaxation. I told him I already heard about it on a support network on the web called Stroke Network. He asked me if that really helped. (He more or less was stating it would be more like a crutch.) I said yes, told him about Edmond Jacobson and his book. He gave me a cd and I told him he should check out Stroke Network. I think he was a little taken back that I knew who Edmond was and that I knew about progressive muscle relaxation.( Thanks Jamie!) He made a couple more appointments. Two weeks apart. I don't think this guy is right for me. I don't want a pity party but I don't need him to go after my irregularities right off the bat. I am disappointed. "I 'm under and over it" = Five Finger Death Punch LOL

Hmm... I think they do say coffee is actually good for you now. Maybe just not instant. I love coffee too, my Dad likes instant coffee, Folgers crystals. I wonder what the crystals do? LOL My daughter has a Breville, grinds and brews. I am stuck with the K cups. Of course when I am at work I get the gourmet coffee out of the huge machine. Now that is some baddd coffee. Terry

I have been looking at what Jamie posted and am going to give it a try. Just started to look at it. Makes sense. It is definitely worth a try. I went browsing a little on the net to see if they had any groups in Ohio, but I think Jamie had allot of detail for me to get started. I just want to find different alternatives then medication and this looks like a good one to start. And ol' Edmund wrote the book 75 years ago and it's still around, so something must be working.

I am going to see a psychologist this week for my anxiety. i am getting tired of being medicated to deal with it. I had some type of what you would call a social anxiety pre stroke. Nothing to major. Just trouble talking in a large group settings and I had to give production status reports in our daily managers meeting which was around 50 people. This was basically the only time I felt anxiety. ( I still do the meetings) Now post stroke is allot different. I can not handle large crowds; the cafe at work was a real challenge, could not even walk in a store due to the crowds, my job is very noisy environment. I have never been depressed, just the anxiety is off the scale. I have managed my job and life for the past 5 years with zanax, it is extended release and I can tell when it is wearing off or maybe I just basically addicted. Even on the zanax I still have anxiety attacks. I think I can manage it better. Hopefully seeing this guy will give me some different ways to reduce my anxiety and deal with it better then just taking medication. I am going to a least give it a try. Terry

That is great! Sounds like you had a wonderful Christmas with your grand daughters. Some of the things they say and come up with!

I think Mike is making great progress! I have weakness in both hands arms. In the beginning I was not able to lift anything . If i did it was not for very long. I still have some issues with my arm weakness and hands but it has gotten much better then it was in the beginning. Terry

That is weird but really cool that you were still able to make the conection after so many years. I think ise 31 is the best route. Terry

I think you might want to tell Dan to start growing a beard! Maybe we could call that swing blade? Keep on it with those apple products. Much better then mircosoft .

This is a very touchy subject. It is really too late for gun control. We have already flooded the market many times in the past every time this happens. And who commits these crimes? The mentally ill. In all the past cases it has been someone with a severe metal disorder. Weather it is a AR15 semi auto rife a 9mm handgun or a shotgun. Now i do think all the high capacity mags should be banned... meaning you cannot own a high capacity mag. If you are caught in procession you would be severely fined. No one needs 30 round clip's. Period. They tried too do this before and the dealers just made money. Pre ban Post ban. Just do away with the high capacity mags and the AR15 would just be the same as a hunting rifle. The mental illness is another story.

My first experience with a motorcycle was when I was in my mid 30's. i always wanted a Harley but since i did not know how to ride a motorcycle my wife convinced me of getting a used bike to at least learn on then get the Harley. Sounded like a pretty good idea too me. So I bought a bike. A small 750cc honda... in mint condition. I got my temporary license, tags, insurance. I am ready to roll. I went down the road a few times. Pretty straight shot. ( no curves) My friends wife stopped over, my wife suggested I give the kids a ride... huh? .... no I was not comfortable with that. So I took off from the house. Got to the first serious curve and hmmm,,, I did't lean very good. It was kinda like a sharp curve but it had a side road. So I ended up going straight. Missed the stop sign.... Good. So I thought it was just a fluke kinda thing so I continued. There was a S curve ahead. I basically could have stayed in the center of the road and would have been ok. But as it turned out I was on the right side and had to lean again. Did not work out so well that time. I hit a huge ditch bank... Of course when I hit, I blew off the handle bars. Kinda looked like superman. I continued to roll and roll and roll. The whole time I was thinking this is gonna hurt. I ended up missing the fence, a bunch of trees and had allot of grass stains. Went to the nearby farmhouse. Asked to use the phone, the older lady looked like i should have called 911. I called the wife and said "the bike broke down" well it did.... she was a little upset when she arrived with my trailer. (With our best friends wife) I tried to roll it on but I couldn't. The older gentleman came with his tractor and helped me load it on the trailer with his loader tractor. He said this reminded him of something he did when he was my age. Of course I said "Oh yeah you wrecked your bike too.... No nothing like that ... he was hauling a freezer and it fell out the back of his truck, in town and he had to recruit some people from the local tavern to help him load it.I did't know where he got that from, as it had nothing to do with me wrecking my bike. I will never know. But it was entertaining. I ended up putting a new front end on the ol' bike. Got it fired up and proceeded to take off down the road.... 55 mph felt like 100mph. So I gave up my dream of riding a motorcycle until I had a stroke..... And that is another story....... Terry

Wow! That does sound very interesting. I have never been to New York City. They have an rv park at Liberty Harbor with access to Manhattan on the ferry. Came close to going. It's on my list. We are camping at Finger's Lake region this year. Been to the Adirondack's . I'm gonna have to try NYC now. Sounds like you had a great time! Terry

I would not want to do this for a living, but I am grateful I still can. And a little hard work never hurt anyone. Ok who said that? It does hurt. LOL But you can bet I will be rocking those owl lights this summer. With a huge amber glow of my campfire. LOL Terry Ok..... How do you add a pic. I really tried but for some reason I am having a little trouble. : )

Hmm.... Ok I stepped out a little with my first blog. A milestone to say the least. I have been cutting a little wood.. well splitting allot of wood. It is killing me. I had 4 trees cut down because they were a little aged. Of course I said I would keep the wood.... bad choice. I have spent three.... three days splitting wood. Not at all what i would consider fun. Do not remotely enjoy it. I would have to say i hate splitting wood. I had one maple tree that had a least a 6 foot trunk. My chainsaw has a 20 inch bar...... Of course I am going to use this stuff when I go camping. And I will remember how much pain it caused but relish in the fact that I will have the best campfire next year. Might take a few weeks to heal up.... but I can't wait until spring. Hopefully I did this blog right. LOL I'm trying.

That was a great story! It's funny I have one that is six going on 20 and I'm 49 going on six. LOL Terry

I think it just depends on the hospital. I had another one at the first of the year and the cost was 3,000.00.

Now that is what life is all about! LOL

Sounds great! Actually has a purpose. Which is even better. I have an rv . More of a stress reliver. Like the campfires at night. Terry

I had the same thing earier this year. i had a change in my health ( Sinus infection) that led to headaches when I was just running out to the car to warm t up during the winter months. I ended up getting an MRI . Everything came back no change. They gave me muscle relaxers for my anxiety. I am already stretched out on the anxiety meds and really can't go too much higher. I am doing accupuncture which really seems to help. I need to go to a counsler but I have'nt found one yet. I ultimately want to get off the xanax. Find a way to control my anxiety without the meds. Terry

Kimmie, Sorry for your loss. You went through alot last year. Hopefully this year will put some joy back in your life. It's good that you are with your boy's and have their support to lean on. Glad to see you are back on the forum. You helped alot of people here. (Me included) Terry